Blast from the past


One of my collages..
Now hanging in Dr. John's new office.  Open hose happening April 19th.  You're all invited!1

I"be been thinking..I know...Ha...shouldn't do that....but I digress...thinking.....when you have a long term illness..people in your life slip away!  They tire of hearing of your difficulties.  Of your pain and struggles.

Friends disappear!1

A long term illness becomes very isolating...it"s lonely.

Am I complaining?  No!  Just stating an observation..and wanting to say that I understand.  I get tired of saying " I hurt" or " I don"t feel well".  It"s boring as hell!

Now as to my latest boring news...arthritis is ravaging all of my joints! Especially now my right hip...SIGH11. So physical therapy will continue to try to save it and keep from having to replace it.  Here"s hoping.

On a new note..I will be flying to Columbus, Ohio and then driving to Lancaster, Ohio to visit with my dear mom.  She is having hip replacement surgery April 19th..I will stay till May 1st.  Boy are we two peas of a pod.  I can see it now!  Two pimped out wheel chairs!1..HaHa!

My granddaughter, Georgia is traveling with me...that will be nice...she has never been to Lancaster and this will be only the 4th time she has been with her great grandmother!  So that is nice and she will be of great help to both of us.

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Sigh

Oh well...Georgia is topsy turvy about the trip..Ha!

May you all have a fabulous day1
Blessings to all

Hugs

SueAnn

SueAnn, Granddaughter Emma, her Hubby Rami, Great Grandson Angel, my son Lee, Great Grandson Santos

Greatgrandson Angel finding those eggs

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

What a wonderful weekend with family..celebrating Easter.  And I have to say..I outdid myself with Easter dinner.  Baked Ham with all the bells and whistles...including upside-down pineapple cake...fabulous!!!  Fun had by all.  I even hid the baskets all throughout the house...haha.  Got them all going.

Hope you all had a fabulous celebration with family and friends..enjoying this Holy of Holiest weekends...as we remember the sacrifice and resurrection of our Lord..amazing!!!

Pain levels were tolerable this past week and therapy was successful.  Can't ask for more than that.

Hope to start water therapy soon and that should bring much more mobility to this poor achy body.

Started three fiber wall sculptures...tada!!!! This is a first in about two years.  For Dr. John's new office.  He moved in about three months ago and it is sparse to say the lease.  I will be posting pics of the upcoming open house.  About three weeks from now!!  Wow....!!!  Do we have some work to do.
                                                                        
Hope my body holds up??!!

Be well my dear friends!

Blessings and Good wishes...

Hugs and Keep moving forward

SueAnn

Blessings and Surprises

Great Grandsons...Angel and Santos

  Aren't they precious?  Of course, I am a bit prejudice...ha!

Angel is just shy of two years and Santos is one month old.  I am still amazed that I am a 

great grandmother.  Wow!

These past two weeks have been a continued struggle for me.  The knee has improved, which is

terrific...the hips are still questionable and I am in therapy for both the right knee and hips.

We shall see.  

The new item to rear it's ugly head is bronchitis/asthma!  It's like walking down a hallway...tripping and falling into a puddle of water...someone holding your head down into the water...you can't breath...your struggle and struggle.  You are able to gulp some air here and there...but they keep pushing your head down.  this struggle continues day after day after day...medicine is little relief.  You have to rest in a sitting position.  It is awful and scary and all you can do it wait it out and hope they finally let you up to breath.  I can breath now!!!  What a relief...now I am dealing with the bronchitis!!  Sigh!!!

I am doing my best to prepare for Easter and my granchildren to fill my house.  Eggs to be hidden and baskets to be filled...not to mention the feast that will ensue!!  Ahhh yes!!!  Ham baking in the oven and upside down pineapple cake..yummy!!

The weather here in Las Cruces,  New Mexico has been awesome!!!  80 degrees and sunny....perfect blue skies and we love it...my swimming pool fund is growing by leaps and bounds!!  Yes I can feel that blue water now! 

Have and fabulous and blessed day

Hugging you

SueAnn

                                                                        

Doesn't look real does it?  It isn't snow!  The above picture is white sand......acres and acres of white sand.  All the bushes look as if God came by and sugared each and every bush and shrub.  I spent the afternoon at White Sands National Park just north of Las Cruses, New Mexico.  What a spectacular sight.

                        Sights and sounds.....sounds....in the distance I can hear that haunting sound.....
                                       It resonates through the night.....the evening train making it's way....it's way into the night...into the night...into the night...........unseen!

I can feel it's presence....cold and searching...grabbing at my heels....waiting to sap my strength...
steal my joy...my very existence....my day!   PAIN!!!
Oh how to release it's grip....it's power....it's icy cold tendrils from my soul??  Suffocating!!

 NO!!   Go within,...return to the place familiar....welcoming to my mind....my place of dreams and ideas...future projects and creations.

Some exciting plans...they really are afoot!!  I tremble.....tendrils begone...you have no hold over me.  We play a waiting game, you and I.  Like a strange and seductive dance...well I shall play no more...the music has changed and I follow a different tune...a melody more soothing to my soul...healing and powerful...defying the very effects of gravity itself!!!

                                                   Above it all....I dare to step forward !!!

                                        Move dear ones...
                bend....stretch...swim....baby steps!


        May His blessings pour forth on your lives,
Hugging you all

SueAnn





                           

                    

                                           

                                                  Happy Valentines Day to one and al!




Shall we start at a beginning??

                                                         

                       My newest great grandson Santos!!!  All 7 Lbs  of him.  Adorable, yes?

                                                  

         And Angel...big brother...constant guardian and my first great grandson...equally adorable.


These are the beginning for our families...for their lives..for the world!!  Amazing to think of!  Wow!!

Then there the are middles...I have definitely passed that period of productivity/middle earth as I've come to think of it. Traveling with Bilbo.

                                                

But I am now dealing with the dragons...fire breathing...talons sharpened and soaring into the sky....  the fun begins......
                                     do I roll over?
                                                            Do I cry UNCLE?

                                      

                                                                                        
There are so many issues I am having to deal with....I am exhausted...disjointed...giving up seems like such a pleasant thing to do.  Some would say a selfish thing to do.....those who walk here know better.

But I chose to pick up sword and shield...don the helmet (Google) and fight these many issues..I plan to come out on top.  Stronger and better........able to share with others!!

There is a path..a way..I will find it!!

                                        

Have a super  fantastic day...
Pick up that banner of healing.
We will ride together.


SueAnn

                                                     

Rising up in the distance........three doors
                                                        choose one.....
                                          one very ornate
                                               one steel..kind of steampunk
                                                                     one made of pure gold!!!

Being a steampunk kind of girl, chose the appropriate door...one that she thought heralded change.

Woohoo!  Was it change...highs and lows..she threw everything she had at it!
                                 All of her time...
                                    All of her money....
                                        All of some money she didn't have....
                                            All of money she could borrow......
     Her love..her friendships...her health....her location in time and space!!!
                                                            She totally transformed into...?
Well we are not sure...
             All of these things are still molding and chiseling her mind and soul....still incising their marks.


Note:   There is a rising star.....a ray of light for blood soaked weary eyes,,,,,


                                             

Two great grandsons...Angel holding new little brother Santos.....

Have a blessed and light filled day

SueAnn

PAIN!!!..There's that word......PAIN!!!....It changes one.....

                                           It has given me a broken heart...

                                                         I'm broken!!!!!

I have left......................and who has returned...............who is this that has returned????????????????



                                                I have never met her

She is kind of rough around the edges........very sad....and so lonely!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Sun is shining today and yet I am so cold....freezing!!!

                                                           Back to bed !!!!!!!!!!!!

I did open that door in 2015...

            And I found one great grandson and one due anytime now...also a boy
                                         Angel and Santos....wow

Knee replacement surgery in September of 2015 and I am still recovering..seems it hasn't healed right.
The the PT man handled it causing further trauma and now I find myself still dealing with it...sigh...
Aren't you glad I m posting again??? Ha!

Halloeeen

Georgia, my granddaughter...John, my cutie pie as the mad hatter and me...

Grandson, Angel as a pirate

My son, Lee Sr. as a flapper...Ha

I thought I lived in Southern New Mexico...it's freezing!!!  Brrrrr

Brrrrrrr

Have a fabulous and warmer day

Hugs
SueAnn

And so it begins......

   opened the first door I saw.....

                       well of course I thought about it...for two years....seemed a wonderful thing to do
so with a great deal of enthusiasm....I flung them open!!!!
          heavier than I thought they would be.....
 

                                                       UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boxes strewn upon the floor....dreams and dollars as before.....
                               promises broken............knuckles scrapped.....temperatures rising
                                                                no escape!!!!!!!!!

Out of boxes...bills galore....no rest for the weary...travel some more!
                                     Water running through the cracks+++++

 Friends remembered on the page...stopping to share my cup of rage......
                                                          Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall
                                                                         Humpty Dumpty had a great fall!!!

And through it all.....there is the page...the wooden cross....and the possible stage!!!

More later!

Have a very gracious and blessed day

SueAnn